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❝But I tell you, do not swear
an oath at all:
either by Heaven, for it is God’s throne;
or by the earth,
for it is His footstool;
or by Jerusalem, for it is the
city of the Great King.
And do not swear by your head,
for you cannot make even
one hair white
or black.
All you need to say is simply 'Yes' or 'No';
anything beyond this comes from
the evil one.
—Matthew 5:34-37
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He is nursing over a drink as well.
He doesn't say anything immediately, because he's probably one of the quieter people here.
But, he will not protest if someone wishes to approach and speak with him. ]
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There's a lot more of us than I thought.
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[ Despite this, he turns to face Dehya. ]
Though, it doesn't exactly surprise me. I did at least anticipate I would not be the only one.
[ Surprising, maybe, to hear him say this - but, he thought it was a reasonable expectation he wouldn't be the only assigned 'protection duty'...and then, he sips at his drink. ]
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[Not over a fourth of the remaining troupe.]
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[ Dainsleif has been mulling over how he feels about the entire thing, and maybe despite the fact he says this, it doesn't exactly shock him.
But, that doesn't mean it's different for others. He'll just finish off a drink in the midst of this, and get another, though. ]
It could have been insurance.
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Nothing is guaranteed, in a situation like this.
[ Dainsleif supposes that what he says is just a potential thought, if anything. But, of all the things...that part seems logical to him. ]
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You were also called to protect, were you not?
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[ Dainsleif is already indulging in a drink right in front of him, if she is going to do the very same...no judgment. ]
I figured that others would have fallen for that themselves when I saw who else was in here with me.
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...I feel like a true fool.
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All I could think about was how Sika had suffered under the divine. I thought we were similar, in having such misfortunes dealt to us, with no fault of our own. I was also blinded by my bias.
Though, I did suspect that not everything was perfect. But, I did not judge Sika to be a cruel individual. My first indication that I made a mistake were the revelations at the meeting.
[ Dainsleif's feelings on the matter are still complicated. Though, in the end, he is letting himself become used to the hurt, taking a gulp of his drink. ]
I keep thinking "If I had done this or that"...but, in the end, it is the heart that can rule over logic. Still, I hope to prove Sika wrong in some way, regardless. [ It's an idiotic notion, because surely people have already tried, right? This person, still clinging to the past, and now, this. They're all here, after all. ] Until then, we can all feel foolish together, while doing what we can, going forward.
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[A pause, then considering]
A future that they may need to open their eyes to, that does not trap them deep within the past.
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[ Dainsleif feels that she put it correctly, and ironically, as he's mulling on this, as she says the following that comes next, he finds himself in agreement as well. There is no dismissing how he felt at the revelation, at now this, but...he still feels strongly about them not letting the past entrap them.
Although, he lets out a little sigh, shaking his head as he mulls over this - the complicated nature of these sentiments, even his own past, and their situation. ]
...do you remember, when we spoke before on the stubbornness of long-lived individuals?
We'll have our work cut out for us, Don.
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[!! LETS FIGHT GODS AND THE DEVIL]
smh
[ Dainsleif says this in one of his serious tones, yet with an element of actual persistent defiance, despite the weariness still seeping in.
Then, he decides to lift his drink up, after facing her. ]
How about it? To everyone's future mutual victory—and collective freedom.
:)
Forsooth! We shall emerge triumphant and free!
[Clinking her glass in turn]
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Then, after that, he downs it in one go. ]
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What do you... make of all of this?
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...It's a complicated situation, first and foremost. But, it doesn't change the fact that most of us were deceived, and therefore should act accordingly.
[ He's still frustrated over it, though him having the time to drink seems to have settled him somewhat. ]
We should be careful as well. Though Sika is certain this is the path that leads to freedom, I wouldn't be surprised if something dares interrupt such plans or somehow this leads to trouble. Never is anything ever so smooth, nor so certain.
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I just wanted to help Sika and Mikaela if they were attacked. Or that Father tried to do something bad to them. I didn't realize...
[He's naive. He's still learning so much. He hadn't even supposed that signing a contract to this nature might've meant there were other subtle machinations beneath it.]
I feel as though we're lying to everyone else who doesn't know.
[Lies of omission, really.]
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Seeing Sika's state didn't help my suspicions. Not to mention, it seemed reasonable. We...would then be working together with the information we had...whatever the case, Sika has more than enough people at their ready.
[ Dainsleif grants a pause at this, and also nods, before turning back to his drink; he idly wonders if the other can drink, but holds off on asking. ]
Though, considering the subject, the lie isn't exactly a small one.
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[Being a puppet, and all, lying is a rule that he's not supposed to break.]
But I don't know if this lie counts. I do think Sika believes what they're doing is right. I think it's just a matter of deciding for ourselves if we believe that. [ ... ] Can I ask what your own personal reasons were...?
[Or is that too, you know. Personal.]
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Personally, I am certain Sika believes mostly that "this is the only way". But, somehow I feel that there is an element in that too that "what they're doing is right", maybe not all in the traditional sense...but, I can't accept this.
[ ... ]
As for my reasons, I had also experienced acts of cruelty by the divine. Seeing how the way the so-called "god" treated them here, with the same effects of memory loss, that constant physical pain, and even eternity thrust upon them, I could not help but relate. A curse of immortality that tears you apart, while their own suffering seems to be reminiscent of that, and the fact they were used as sustenance. I was disgusted as well.
[ Even if Sika committed such terrible acts, this has gone on so long, he had thought at one point...that hadn't at least some of them been repaid? Not all of it, but how can they truly begin to change for the better, like this? ]
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At the latter half of that, P's eyes widen slightly.]
Oh. I hadn't realized.
[This... throws their last conversation into more light, then.]
That's awful. But it says something that even though you relate to awful things, you still feel like this is wrong. Having sympathy, without compromising what you believe is right... It's admirable.
Not that it makes this any easier, though.
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Maybe it's just the honesty, and having heard the Abyss Order before consistently complain about that very nature of him does help. ]
Were it that it was easy.
At times, the heart can falter. Become swallowed in the familiar shadow of the abyss when its echoes seem the same; but, I have always tried to keep myself from doing that, even if it would be simpler to do otherwise.
[ Dainsleif gives a pause, however. ]
It's good whatever happened didn't shake your faith entirely in moving forward, either. Revelations are not always easy to weather, whether the individual has been in the world for long, or otherwise.